Friday, March 31, 2006

In Case You Wanted to Know...

today my friend Josh read my palm and told me my life story. And here it is:

I have a highly successful career in whatever I pursue.
I marry a Japanese-American architect taller than myself...
And we have two children a boy and a girl.
We live in a modern home, undoubtedly designed by my husband,
That looks off of a cliff towards the ocean...
It is very West coast or tropic-like foreign country.
We have a toy dog of some sort (but hopefully not yippity) and
Our other pet is a small fish with beautiful, colorful fins.

All in all it is a pretty happy outlook for me... he also mentioned I have a long life line, and I am not a lesbian; but unfortunately I love my son more than I love my architect husband....

Sidenote: I always did want to live in a warm area, and I love large bodies of water, but I was almost 90% sure I was going to marry a Caucasian boy. Maybe that is just a skewed perspective as a result of living in Iowa for the past 13 years.

I Close My Eyes :: Shivaree

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

; ) I Have....

boys on the brain... near and far...
(when I should really be studying for my sociology test. Boys are cute...)

new music waiting to lovingly grace my ears...
A Grand Love Story :: Kid Loco
Monarch :: Feist
EP and Interventions & Lullabies :: The Format
To Be You and Me :: Broken Social Scene
Will You Find Me :: Ida

just a little over a month until I graduate...

a lack of motivation...

Monarch :: Feist

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Last Top 5.

Perhaps a bit too repetitious, but I can't help it.
Top 5 Things to Make Miss Lily Smile Today.

1. Tracy/Mogwai :: Kid Loco
2. Lee, his present to me, and his contagious smile
3. Figure drawing class
4. Receiving a blown kiss from a boy on my way to class
5. And two high fives... scratch that four high fives.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Top 5 Yoga Poses & Why I Heart Yoga.

half moon
side plank
down dog

Yoga is the only time I give 100% to myself. For two hours a week (I wish it were more) I give myself this treat: a balancing of my mind, body and soul. Focusing on breathing. I inhale the calm, and I exhale the stresses. Thinking of no one else (usually, sometimes my mind wanders), my breath gives me the strength to hold my poses. My breath gives me life and awakens me as a being, not a student, a designer, an artist, a daughter, a sister or a friend; just a human being.

Yoga makes me physically aware of my body, helps me sleep deeper, helps me eat less and more nutritiously. In short yoga makes me sane.
It makes me.

Guilty Cubicles :: Broken Social Scene

Top 5 Things to Make You Cry and Ruin Your Week Before It Even Starts.

1. Get into a minor car accident... which will lead to costly bills, higher insurance rates, but most of all a disappointed dad.
2. Dote on embarrassing moments of past and wish they would disappear from your mind.
3. Anticipate a stressful week of 2 charcoal drawings due, 1 graphic project due and a sociology test.
4. Sit in front of a mirror topless for a few hours drawing and see how you feel about your body.
5. Did I mention dissapoint your dad?

Don't Need A Reason :: Beth Orton

(Talk about melodramatic... sorry to be such a downer. Go back to my Sunday links and enjoy the fine art. I'll be back to my good ol self in a week... maybe.)

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Top 5 Artists.

Hung Liu
Edward Hopper
Martin Parr
Walker Evans
Andy Goldsworthy

Liu for her emotive, expressive portraits, brushstroke & color palette.
Hopper for his solemn, isolated figures and creation of space.
Parr for his colorful irony, humor and critique on society.
Evans for his documentative photographic style.
Goldsworthy for his beauty in economy.

The Boxer :: Hung Liu

Saturday, March 25, 2006

I Surprise Myself...

with my craziness.

The District Sleeps Alone Tonight :: The Postal Service

Some Guys Are Smooth...

And I don't want to be that girl...
but I am.

My stomach hurts.

Names :: Cat Power

Friday, March 24, 2006

The Apple of My Eye.

Last night I watched a movie at Amber's. By watch I mean listened to while I hunched over my Apple Powerbook and graphic designed. In a mad rush to get home to continue designing and leave Amber to her beauty sleep, I left my powercord and iPod at her place. Once at home, with my laptop dying and no iPod in sight, I found myself with nothing to do. I literally walked around my apartment aimlessly not knowing what to do with myself. It made me realize how dependent I am on my Mac (aka: the "Apple of My Eye"). My life is on this machine: all of my graphic design portfolio, over 10,000 digital photos from my travels and life, and over 20 gigabytes of music. All of which I don't have hard copies backedup. How scary and sad. Scary because this machine is my life and sad because this machine is my life.

You realize my dilemma.

Yes a problem I am aware, but I'm not quite ready to take the 12-step program. In the mean time, here are some things that have been on my mind, in my heart and playing on my Apple:
money (lack there of)
life after graduation:
graphic design?
youth camp arts leader?
teach for america?
new tennis shoes to begin wall climbing
the kids at ERP
Jonathan's parents
my parents
the China Hut
Kings of Convenience
Buena Vista Social Club
Nina Simone
Ane Brun
Nick Drake
Amon Tobin

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Just In Time.

by Nina Simone.

This is a great story... I can relate.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

I Don't Have Anything to Say. And This is What that Sounds Like:

I was an hour late for work this morning because I stayed up until 4 AM drawing my naked torso in charcoal for figure drawing class.

Iowa greeted me with 8 inches of snow on the ground! (Its the first day of spring! If I had the Mamas & the Papas I would have listened to California Dreamin' on my morning walk to work.)

People don't know how to use Photoshop and I can't fix everything, especially on three hours of sleep and bad Folgers coffee.

Overachieving still hasn't failed me. (Prof: "I told you before that I needed you to push the class forward and I wasn't lying.")

I got paint on my "new" sweater from a vintage shop in LA, but I don't care because I did it painting. (I'm pretty sure I want to teach art.)

I put way too much vinegar in my hot and sour soup. My stomach is burning. (I'm such a graphic designer, without this sentence I would have had a widow, and yah the rag on my title bothers me.)

I eat weird food: mix vanilla yogurt with sugar free raspberry preserves, add nutmeg and cinnamon to taste and enjoy while thinking of me.

Currently listening to The Build-Up :: Kings of Convenience with Feist vocals... for the 76th time. I LOVE her voice.

Monday, March 20, 2006

Theme Song of the Day.

The Build-Up :: Kings of Convenience

In quite literal terms:
the build-up of a week with no self {yoga}
the build-up of homework unaccomplished
the build-up of a diet less healthy
the build-up of hopes for a not so distant future.

In "the vaguely announced"
The spinning top made a sound like a train across the valley
Fading, oh so quiet, but constant 'til it passed
Over the ridge into the distances, written on your ticket
To remind you where to stop
And when to get off
When to get off
When to get off
When to get off

... when to get off?

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Enjoy Your Flight Miss Ly [flying the friendly air first class]

Real dishes...
Salted nuts in a heated bowl...
Warmed hand washclothes...
Cloth placemats...
A dinner when everyone else must pay for a snack...
Its crazy!
Least of all, a cookie & milk dessert.
(which I passed due to degree of chocolate chunkiness)

Overbooked flights make for fantastic news: a voucher for 1 roundtrip flight to anywhere in the 48 contiguous states for FREE!

I'm thinking New York, but I'll gladly take suggestions.

Current mood? Elated!
Currently listening to Just for a Moment :: Aqualung.

Friday, March 17, 2006

Ready"Made" My Day.

The bright sun...
A long walk...
A talk with Amber...
Meeting Maili...
Laughing over tea...
Pictures by the SF Bay...

I'm so excited for the possibilities of life.
Its everywhere... don't let it pass by.
(more or less a note for myself, but I'm willing to share ;)

Emeryville :: California 2006
Best viewed when listening to Aqualung or Kings of Convenience

Thursday, March 16, 2006

ReadyMe for ReadyMade....?

I'm working on it. Check them out.

Currently listening to You Turn Me Round :: Aqualung.

Sometimes I Am Fricken Ridiculous...

and so is this.

Santa Monica Beach 2006.

Currently listening to Don't Need A Reason :: Beth Orton

Monday, March 13, 2006

Sunday, March 12, 2006

I Was Distracted....

Currently watching Waiting for Guffman, waiting for my toes to warm from a day full of walking in the rain. Would LOVE a fireside chat, hot tea and music.... and Amber.

The Nature of the Airport Terminal.

Avoidance of confrontation.
Couplets and singles keep to themselves.
Yet convergence in this one room.
Dotted like salt and pepper...
Where are they all headed?

Des Moines Int'l Airport en route to Chicago with an ultimate destination: San Francisco, California.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

I Finally Get It...

A realization finally reached me last night.
A care that I choose not to share...
But wish everyone to know.
Its good that I know now...
So I won't try as hard.
So my expectations are lowered...
So I won't fall as hard.
So I won't fall.

Though I'm sad,
I have much to look forward to today... and later:
1. THE AIR. I fly to California today. I miss flying. I miss seeing new things.
I miss.
2. THE MUSEUMS. This week I will see the SFMOMA and de Young in San Francisco, and Getty's museum in LA. Possibly the Asian Art Museum and the Museum of Craft + Design as well.
3. A TOUR. Is it everything I want in a job? Will they appreciate my interest? Will they hire me?
4. A CALLING. Is it calling me? The West... or the East? What kind of girl am I? Who am I?... Or which do I want to be?
5. A KISS or at least A HUG. Maybe he will. Maybe he won't. Maybe I'm just looking for some passion... because maybe I watched The Notebook last night... and maybe I did not cry or even get teary-eyed. Where is my heart?

These lips are craving passion because I think I've lost heart.

Friday, March 10, 2006

My Favorite Part of The Day.

Every morning I walk through an "X" intersection right in front of the library.
It is my favorite part of the day.
Students rush around me and I around others.
Within 30 seconds we all converge...
Interweaving in perfect harmony.
Hardly ever do people run into each other.
Everyone alters their pace into a perfect ebb and flow of bodies.
And then theres that one person who looks you in the eyes.

I LOVE it.
The sun streaming down (like today).
The perfect song playing on my iPod mini (Ageless Beauty :: Stars)
Today, life is beautiful.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Forgive Me.

I don't really wish I could forget some things ever happened.... otherwise I wouldn't be who I am today. I'm generally happy with who I am, who I was, and who I hope to become. I hope you are too... and if not, lets talk about it over a cup of soy miel or herbal tea, take your pick.

xoxo to you and life.


So I kind of sort of went on a date thing... ......
He didn't know what the word prententious meant.
Yah, I'm judging....
Now who is being pretentious?
Thoughts this morning.
1. I hate it when I hate things.
2. I should drink more water.
3. I don't want to wish away my life.
4. I wish I could forget some things ever happened.
Yah. I broke #3 all ready and its only 10 AM.

Currently at work listening to Les Reprouves / Tommy Hools :: Kid Loco on his Jesus LIfe for Children Under 12 Inches album.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

"Awards of Excellence."

So I won two awards of "excellence" for these two pictures at the juried Art Director's Association of Iowa Student Exhibition. It might sound impressive, but its really not.

They really turned out quite lovely... as are the memories of them.

Currently listening to Are They Saying Goodbye :: Ane Brun

Monday, March 06, 2006

I'm flying out... West.

Off to California I go. I traveled quite a bit in Europe and the ease of train and people there made me feel comforted. Despite the fact that I can understand people here in the US, I don't feel as safe about my forthcoming trip. I'm not sure why. It could be my lack of plans, but I never felt I needed to know where everything is and where to go when I was in Europe. Why in the US? Such a conundrum.

I really just want to relax. So I'm going to just going to go with the flow. Isn't that how they do things out in California anyway? (yah, I'm stereotyping, I do that sometimes)

Currently feeling mellow.
Currently listening to This Years Love :: David Grey.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Are You Proud of What You've Done Today?

Did you accomplish what you've wanted? Did you feel what you've wanted to feel? Is the world a better place because you have?

Asking these questions to myself make my bad morning trivial. There are issues in the world of far greater concern than a late start, bad color prints, embarrassing paintings on the exhibition wall, and what I ate the past few days.

I asked myself these questions because I wanted to start to view the glass half-full. My todo list relative to the issues of the world is utterly selfish:

1. portfolio rework: Butterfly filing packaging design (I named it the "Butterfiler" ), playing card redesign, Palatine Hill identity system, Death Cab for Cutie calendar design
2. resume/cover letter mailout for getting interviews
3. studio/firm research... looking at the "West Side": Seattle, Portland, San Francisco/Berkeley... maybe Los Angeles...
4. book design homework
5. laundry
6. groceries (could probably hold out..)

But its all so trivial. I want to fight the world. Against it. For it. All of the above. Forget my todo list. Forget graphic design. I just want to do service: community, volunteer. Americorp and Teach for America seem like a dream that is so out of reach.

Friday, March 03, 2006

Hung with Chopsticks.

Currently loving Song No. 6 :: Ane Brun featuring Ron Sexsmith