Tuesday, December 18, 2007


1/saline solution
2/keri lotion
3/neutrogena daily face wash
4/christmas shopping

1/family christmas card : finish designing the card, print said card, address envelopes and mail
2/portfolio : print pardon me, ford fund imagine campaign, palatino, obscure observer, photograph said pieces
3/finish website
4/get the crap outta here

Thursday, December 13, 2007

I've Recently...

1. given up on Myspace and Facebook
2. really focused on my website
3. finished my Chinese language class
4. slept in my contacts. :(
5. listening to these four songs
Bird on a Wire :: Rogue Wave
Keys to Good Living :: the Envy Corps
Starlight :: Muse
Waiting for the 7.18 :: Bloc Party

Monday, December 10, 2007

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Rubik's Cubes

It seems to me that most recently, within the past three years, men I'm attracted to carry a Rubik's cube with them or fiddle with it in conversation.


What is it about this colorful toy puzzle that makes me wanna be their friend? Or more? Is it the twisting and overlapping of cubes turning and ever constantly changing? Is it the challenge? An appreciation of their ability to grasp the obstacle thus exhibiting man's logic at it's finest... to solve a child's puzzle.

No matter the reason. I can't solve the challenge that is Rubik's so it is a respectable feat in mine eyes. And should one ever be so interested in me, whip a cube in front of me and show me the way. The way of logic.

Here's something relating to my areas of interest: Rubikcubism

Listening to Heartbeats :: Jose Gonzales
(Phil, if you're reading this, this song is beautiful)

Friday, November 30, 2007

I would...

stay in the shower all day and be enveloped by warmth
if it meant i would stop feeling this.
And if my fingers didn't get pruney.

Listening to silence.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

:_ (

I'm crying.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

This moment will only last but a few minutes before I break down in tears.

So I'm listening to these songs...
Triggers of both my worst and best semester at ISU.
In my mind, these songs have grown timeless,
working in all sorts of situations:
mainly low points in my life.
But upon hearing the melodies,
listening to the guitar strums,
hearing the gentle lead vocals,
I realize although I tend to listen to them during low times,
and previously listened to them during my worst semester,
I have equated these songs to my strength.
The overcoming of such pain, anxiousness and tears.
I know I can do it again.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Down in the Valley...

So I'm in a low right now.

Feeling rather dumpy.

Thinking about the decisions I've made in my life, and wondering in what mind I was in to believe such life decisions were made with careful deliberation.

I'm currently in a Chinese language class encouraging my daydream-filled head that being abroad doesn't sound too bad.

In fact it sounds great.

I'll just leave it at that.

Currently listening to Andrew Bird :: Armchair Apocrypha

Thursday, April 19, 2007

this is lame...

me doing another post about feist...
but this video is so cute...
and one of my new favorite songs...


Saturday, April 14, 2007

this makes me laugh...

one evening :: feist

i didn't used to like this song but this video is so random...
and it has buck 65 in it...
i heart feist.

speaking of her...
her new album {the reminder} out on my birthday {may 1st}...
is great.
yes, i all ready have it...
yes, i've had it for a while...
i love friends who give me music. {period}

Thursday, April 12, 2007

top five...

this 12th day of april...
1/sodom, south georgia :: iron and wine
2/susanna coffey (www.susannacoffey.com)
3/dinner with stewart
4/surprise emails
5/talking with brent

Monday, March 26, 2007


to all our guilty pleasures.
May we revel in our human-ness,
and reach for heights unknown to man.

He says things I think.
"stress isn't necessarily in places. it is in people. in us. and will follow us, wherever we may go."

He Strives.
"perhaps it is sometimes wiser to listen to the head, reason, and logic above emotions. but i dont really think anything emotionally-oriented or logical precedes wisdom. i suppose that's something to strive for."

He's human.

He questions.
"i'm pretty frightened as well.
but, not any fright too large for my God to turn into something beautiful.
if only i hand it over... that's the part that gets me."

He's a lyrical muse.
He quotes Pedro the Lion.
"'the longer i lay here'. i need a miracle, someone to help me, help myself."

He's a cutie.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007


fake palindromes
fake crushes
i don't know how to begin this post.
it's been much too long since i've seriously done so.
and so it goes

i rode a rollercoaster yesterday.
up was the day as my name rolled off his lips...
an elation that continued through yoga and a run...
but unprepared i slide into a plateau...
where i just sit.
sitting is where i am...
as her name is said to me.
sitting is where i am...
as i see you sitting next to me.
sitting is where i am...
as i begin to feel like i can't breathe,
my heart pounds,
my body flailing at the top,
screaming at the "pea"ple down below.
the air is thin up here...
the ones i thought were here to help pull me off,
are now clearly in the distance...
far away, not here...
they were fake crushes.

i fail.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Clap Your Hands and Say Yeah...

I still read this blog...
Why? Because I haven't updated in a while...
And I want to know if it's worth it...

Am I worth it???