Thursday, December 18, 2008

I design Christmas cards.




And they look like this.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Monday, December 01, 2008

Why am I still at work?

This video is sweet! Too bad this is the only Fujiya Miyagi song I like.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

A weekend home.

5 Things

1! Grrrrr! I just found out years ago my dad wrote the story of my family's immigration, something I've long wanted to accomplish. However, the notebook is lost! This project has always been a bit of a backburner. I get conflicting stories from both parents... or even a single parent. And even so, there is sooooo much to be discussed. There is always a bit of a hesitation when I try to delve into this. It makes me wonder if they saw more of the war than they are willing to share.

2! I'm stuck in Atlantic b/c of the snow... grrrrrrr. RAWR! RAWR! RAWR! RAWR! RAWR!

3! My tummy hurts. I just want to be back home.

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4! Awesome fortune cookies!
You have the ability to nurture and work creatively with others.

You are going to travel somewhere far away.

Someone special admires you.

I not-so-secretly believe all of these fortunes.

5! Awesome sibling picture: Lace n Li.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Sensory perceptions.

It's weird how certain sensory perceptions trigger past memories. Recently I've been taken back to a rebellious time in my life, a little over four years ago.

Saturday, I purchased a small bottle of tea tree oil. This is an essential oil extracted from the Melaleuca tree. It is comparable to benzoyl peroxide but natural. I purchased this once when I had gotten my nose pierced and the trauma to my skin caused issues. My piercer suggested this oil, which I used religiously for about a month, and it completely resolved my problem allowing me to keep my piercing. The oil is also good for acne. I felt my Neutragena wasn't cutting it anymore so I bought some tea tree oil. Upon opening the bottle I was immediately taken back to that time of confusion, tears and broken hearts. Awwwwwww.

Today, I found this video on one of my favorite music blogs: La Blogoteque. This album is probably one my quintessential break-up albums. It was my first break-up, therefore the most significant. Luckily, I look upon this time fondly and smile. Though one the most trying events to overcome, never once have I regret it.

And I'm thankful for that.
<3

Saturday, November 22, 2008

This is eerily me.

I have a friend who can see auras. I know what you're thinking... It sounds ridiculously bogus, but I can't deny it's eerie truthfulness. It makes me both smile and want to cry at the same time! One night at work, I was having a particularly great night and she saw my aura. She said I am clearly a blue. This is what I am:

Blues are some of the most loving, nurturing and supportive personalities of the Life Colors. They live from their heart and emotions. Their purpose for being on the planet is to give love, to teach love and to learn that they are loved. Their priorities are love, relationships, and spirituality.

Blues are traditionally teachers, counselors, and nurses---basically the loving, nurturers and caretakers on the planet. Blues are constantly helping others. They want to make sure that everyone feels loved and accepted. People are always turning to Blues for comfort and counsel because Blues will always be there for them. They consistently provide a shoulder for others to cry on.

Blues are the most emotional personalities in the aura spectrum. They can cry at the drop of a hat. Blues cry when they are happy, hurt, angry, sad, or for no apparent reason at all. Even watching a sentimental commercial on television can bring on tears.


Not gonna lie... this morning I saw a dead squirrel in the middle of the street on my walk to the coffee shop and I wanted to cry. I am ridiculous.

Listening to Girl Talk.
Love it!
And this too.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

I made this part 2



Last night I stayed up until 1 AM designing the office SHF brand. Basically, because we are a public, state-run university, we have to be politically correct, meaning no Secret Santa for us. My office, I don't know how many years ago, created SHF (Secret Holiday Friend). It sounds a bit naughty if you ask me, but whatever, it's a tradition. I began this project exhausted of work and distressed at my tendency to create clean, Swiss design. So I went old school, picking up my pen and sketching on a blank pad. This is what I came up with... and... I like it. I might expand upon this project so it could become a portfolio piece. We'll see if I can find the time.

When I drove to work this morning... It was sunny and warm enough to open my window... Then I walked to the building I needed to be on campus and it was glorious
My spirits have lifted.
Currently listening to "Each Coming Night" :: Iron and Wine remix and doing my daily sudoku and crossword.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I made this.



This is a vinyl sticker I created for seniors at ISU to put in their car windows... we will be selling them in a package with a glass and a T-Shirt that I also designed, but they say different things. I like this okay.. it could be better.. it can always be better... This is pink, b/c I like pink. But the actual design is the ISU cardinal red.

Monday, November 10, 2008

I've been feeling down.

So I'm sitting at Café Milo and drinking "Ancient Happiness" tea. I'm hoping this will bring up my spirits.

On that note, This is hilarious! Lin it would really bring up my spirits if you did this at your wedding. Please and thank you.

Friday, November 07, 2008

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Today is an 8!

News from far away calms a worry that had you bothered some. If they don't call you, call them. It's worth the long-distance charges to get a good night's sleep.

I'm really lame. I love reading my horoscope.

Today it's sunny in the Midwest and I'm listening to "Bird on a Wire" by Rogue Wave. This song just fills me up with Hope. Happy voting.

Monday, November 03, 2008

Meow!


I'm a kitty!
At The Cafe where I where I work part-time, for the last two and half years, my co-workers have called me Kitty. I hadn't thought much of it because I knew it to be a term of endearment. Recently, it became known to me that upon first meetings, complete strangers would acknowledge such tendencies. This puzzled me as to how my interactions with people translated into feline. One day I sat down with a fairly new friend, flailing my arms in exaggerated motions and enthusiasm, and said "I just don't get it." He looked at me silently for a moment and said... "because you are cute and cuddly like a kitten. You always hug people and rub their backs lovingly, but are also independent." I looked up into his eyes and couldn't stop the smile from creeping onto my face. I can handle that. I guess I can handle people meowing at me, calling me "Kitty" "Mew Mew" and "Kotchka" the Russian word for cat, if only it means that I am cute, cuddly and independent.

PS. The smurfette is my friend (aka Wifey) Anjana. Isn't she gorgeous?

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Sunday, October 05, 2008

1 Month!

I didn't realize it had been so long!
This is my month in short.

I bought a car. It is a 97 Honda Civic. Perfect-sized... Asian-Sized as my friends would say! It is old, has 94,000 miles on it, but I have faith in it to do the job: which is to get me to my two jobs.

I've continued to work both my jobs: graphic designer for the ISU Alumni Association and server extraordinaire at The Café. Both jobs are exhausting but very fulfilling. And at the moment, feeling necessary...

Necessary because my laptop is dying. I am going to try to make it another month, though I can afford a new one now, I think I can also be patient and wait a little. Spending so much money in such short time makes me nervous. My iPod is dying too.

Other things in Li's life:
1/composing a mixed CD :) I've been listening to it, non-stop... but it's not quite ready... :P
2/Andrew Bird's new CD comes out at the end of January. Listen here.
3/Loving Priscilla Ahn. Listen to "Leave the Light On"
4/She makes me want to learn the guitar.
Yah. I wanna learn the guitar.
5/Going to see the Kooks this Wednesday...
2nd time to see them this year.

PS.
This is a wedding invitation I am designing for my friend Suzy.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

I'm growing my hair out...


and reading Thoreau.

Friday, August 29, 2008

AGAIN?

My phone conversation last night:

Li: Hi Dad it's me.
Dad: Which one?
Li: Me, LIsa
Dad: Oh. Hi. (sort of in a trailing voice as in wondering where Mom is so that she can resolve my needs, so he can get back to work.)
Li: I got into an accident.
Dad: AGAIN?@! (shock for point two seconds, then a sigh)
Li: No Dad, a car hit me.
Dad: Oh.
Li: I was driving to work from my other work and someone rear-ended me.
Dad: They wha?
Li: REAR-ended, me. (enunciating loudly)
Dad: Is everything okay?
Li: The trunk won't shut and the brake light is broken.
Dad: Are you okay?
Li: Yah, I'm fine, I only hit my head on the back of the seat.
Dad: What?
Li: I'M FINE.

insert a lot of discussion about insurance, including but not limited to reading him the different kinds of coverage we have on the good ol' cutlass.

Dad: Okay well.
Li: Yah. So I'll call the insurance tomorrow.
Dad: Okay.
Li: Bye Dad.
Dad: Bye.

He's so funny.







I only cried a little bit. I promise.

Monday, August 25, 2008

(this is you for Phil!)

oh-my-goodness-i-bought-a-dining-table!



...
and this is where I eat my Crispix and soy milk!

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Absent.

Please, kind readers, excuse my recent absence. I've been... busy? Honestly, I don't know where the time goes. As you know I am working two jobs: Designer for ISU Alumni Association and Server at The Café. So I suppose that has been occupying my time. I also moved into my own place recently. While exciting, it is very scary for me.

I hate stuff.
During my last year in college a couple of years ago, I streamlined my belongings. Only having the necessary items. I had backpacked Europe with just my Kelty bag... I liked that. At the time, I didn't know where I would be going... It could have been anywhere. And now much to my chagrin, I find it is right where I was? Anywho, the point of this story is that I am scared to commit to things... purchased items (ie: sofas, queen-sized beds, a dining table), signing a lease to my apartment. It really pisses me off. Grrrr! I say GRRRRRR! and Rawr! And at the moment that means a strong desire to leave Ames....

Ironically, in my relationships... It seems I only want commitment.

?

Whelp. Such is life.

Two more things:
Iron and Wine (Pocketknife's Rooftop Telescope Edit)
&
Shugo Takumaru

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Can't get enough...

of old Built to Spill.

"Strange"
"In Your Mind"
"The Weather"
"The Plan"
"Center of the Universe"
"Carry the Zero"
"Else"
"You Were Right"

So ever-so-slightly regretful.
I bought a cute couch... But it needs a reupholster. :(
When will I find the time to do that? It is so adorable, I couldn't pass it up. It is a retro, 50s style sectional; very feminine, and dainty. They even threw in a retro lamp shade. Any who, I LOVE it, but I would also love for someone to be around to help me with this do-it-yourself-(or-with-someone-who-loves-you) project. Any offers?

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Heck yes!

Yesterday, rather spur of the moment, I went to the first 80/35 Music Festival in Des Moines, Iowa.

I got to see
Ingrid Michaelson (Thank you for introducing me, Phil)
Andrew Bird (for the 2nd time!)
and
The Flaming Lips (uh-mazing!)

Funny story... So I went to the festival with my friend Andy. We both ran into many random people that we knew. He, some girls he knew, one of whom he was interested in. He commented that she seemed rather distant and I told him, she is probably intimidated by our close friendship. I told him if that he wanted to make out with her tonight, he'd have to ditch me and chill with her. So I let him...

You're probably thinking where's the funny part of the story... besides the part where Lisa was alone at a music festival for about an hour scared of all the drunk guys leering and hitting on her?

Well, Andy is my guy's guy. The traditional dude who knows stuff about how to fix cars and navigate in a city, so I always make him drive me around. As in common routine, he drove to this music festival in my car and was the only one who knew where it was parked, as I had not anticipated the "ditch-the-friend" move. So by the time the festival was over at 11:30, my phone had died and I hadn't a clue where the car was. To be stereotypical, I couldn't even tell you the make of the car, only that it was a dark, navy blue. Way to go woman! Luckily I was not alone and had found some coworkers of mine to chill with, so we wandered around downtown for about 15 minutes but to no avail found my vehicle before my friends needed to satisfy the drunk hunger pains. (Insert dinner next to Cracker) Then my friend, Charlie, and I embarked on the find-the-car-venture... which ended up being rather close and only took about 20 minutes or so. What a night! I got home about 2ish or so. Long day... and was up at 7:30 for work the next day. Way to go, Li. Way-To-Gooooooooooooooooo.

Friday, July 04, 2008

I'm going to buy this.

Jane Vain & the Dark Matter

Listen to "C'mon Baby Say Bang Bang"

Happy 4th!

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Tears!

Tears for Fear... and no Talking Heads at the Ames Public Library. L-A-M-E. Oh and I cried today, but whatever. I'm not talking about it.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

(my nose is crinkled)

I almost cried three times at my new job imagining what everyone was doing at my other job... I think I have a problem... I am obsessed with The Café! On the other hand, I brought a pastry assortment, from The Café of course, to my "Welcome Reception" at my new job, and everyone loved me! They said I was starting out on the right foot. They mostly thought it humorous that I walked to work, brought them treats to my reception and even supplied my own laptop to work on. "Very impressive!" Don't worry, they will supply me with my own computer when they move to their new building, where, I'll have you know, I get my own office with a window!... I think it has a window... Oh dear, I hope it has a window! No cubicle for me, please!

Can't get enough of the Talking Heads right now!
This Must Be the Place!

Oh and seriously, I need this CD... and you do too.
Sigur Rós :: Gobbledigook.

Friday, June 27, 2008

So...

I frequently drive myself crazy with my own stupid thoughts. These thoughts are exacerbated when people suggest I read links such as this. Which albeit, helpful, also discouraging. How are men and women, sooooo different?

I also tried to talk things out with a girlfriend, who if no one knows where I am, they would know to call her. Well that didn't help like I thought it would.

What I really need to be, is alone somewhere for the remaining week. Tonight, the goal is to not talk to anyone. Which will be hard since I'm working tonight. And I have plans to hang out with Andy. But we're going to try. I'm really going to try this no talking thing. What do you think?

Saturday, June 21, 2008

So... Funny things...

I bartended at work today. Me. Can you imagine this little asian girl running behind a big bar making your drinks? LOL. It was fun... and I would do it again.

Today I made:

9 bloody mary's
2 mimosas
2 margaritas
and poured 2 or 3 wine glasses

There was a few drinks I didn't make because I got caught up serving my 10 tables

Those include:
a key lime martini
batida
4 mojitos
and maybe something else?

Not sure I could bartend all that much. But I feel honored that my boss trusted me to do it in the first place.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Dear Mother of all things that are evil,

This new ride you call Tossing and Turning into the wee hours is AMAZING! I'm not much for rides, but this is more fun than I can handle. I mean seriously. You should really market this better. I think you're missing a key audience: those who actually fall asleep before 2 AM. Mother of Evil, you mustn't advertise on late night TV infomercials anymore, as you see those people are already convinced clientele. Let's put this on daytime TV. Now that's an audience that can use some convincing.

PS. These summer allergies are a wonderful addition to the fantastical adventure that is the time I usually reside to bedtime slumber. How much do I pay for this added feature? The stuffy nose? I mean really... just exquisite!

Monday, June 16, 2008

Well...

I took the job. Most of you who read this, already know this. Feeling all right about it. I still get to keep my job at The Café, which makes me VERY happy. And now I will be able to afford my two-bedroom apartment, which will be great! Bedroom 2 will be my guest bedroom and painting studio. So if anyone feels like visiting the middle of Iowa, you have a room in my home.

My friend Andy returned from traveling the Far East. He's well and I am happy to have him back in my life. More importantly, I'm excited for us to go kayaking!

Also, friends and family, my phone, will be replaced Thursday morning. And you will get to hear my beautiful voice once again! Sorry for the past couple of weeks, it's been hard for everyone, especially me.

Listening to Death Cab's lastest album.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Bleh!

I don't even care!
Whateva whateva!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Day 3

Lin, here are some shows for you at the Aladdin Theater that I would go to if I were where you are. Much love.

1/
SAT JUNE 14 THE BLOW
w/ Glass Candy
Tickets $13.00 adv /$14.00 dos
Doors 7:00pm / Showtime 8:00pm

2/ (Lacey loves Joshua Radin... I am not too familiar, but you could easily make Lacey jealous)
TUE AUG 19 JOSHUA RADIN
w/ Erin McCarley & Hanna Testle
Tickets $15.00 adv / $18.00 dos
Doors 7:00pm / Showtime 8:00pm

3/ I LOVE! Bon Iver. LOVE. (PS. I bought his EP, and I don't even own a turntable.)
FRI AUG 29 BON IVER
w/ A.A. Bondy
Tickets $14.00 adv / dos
Doors 8:00pm / Showtime 9:00pm

4/ I saw Stars in NYC when I lived there. The venue was awful, but I love these guys too. See them!
STARS
Friday, August 22, 2008
Tickets $16.00 adv / dos
Wonder Ballroom * 128 NE Russell * PORTLAND * 503-284-8686
9:00pm
All Ages

Monday, June 09, 2008

Day 1

1:51 AM
I am cleaning cleaning cleaning.
And enjoying it.
Currently listening to Beat :: Thao

Saturday, June 07, 2008

Grrr.

Work.

Grrr.

B/c of my grrr day, I bought the new Fleet Foxes album (dig White Winter Hymnal).... and I went to the Antique Ames mall and bought a jade-hued vintage leather purse on sale for $10. I adore it! Currently, NOT adoring the Iowa humidity.... and totally jealous of Sheng's trip to San Francisco. He leaves tomorrow and will be gone for a week. What a jerk, right? :P

Ps. Here's a picture of one of my dearest friends, Jaci. Together, we ventured to Kansas City, Missouri and saw the Kooks, Rogue Wave and the one and only Death Cab for Cutie.

Monday, June 02, 2008

I'm getting cold feet.

I don't want to interview for this job. I think I need to sleep. My nerves are getting to me. I'm so emotional right now!

It's times like these, I feel the world is crashing down on me, pressuring me to "get a real job." I have never had such a strong distaste for the idea of doing something as I do now. I just keep imagining sitting alone in front of the computer designing meaningless ephemera that will get printed on poor black and white laser printers and wasted upon eyes who don't care. I had this job 4 years ago as a sophomore in design; I recall being bored out of mind, asked to do boring things like posters for "free hot dogs on campus" and having to draw a cartoon walking hot dog b/c a student, "my client," thought it was a great idea.

This is not what I want. So what am I doing?

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Grrr....

I had a bad day. I am trying to relax from it so I can focus on more pertinent things (ie: my interview tomorrow) but I can't shake this awful day. I had some customers tell me all the things I did wrong while serving them. I

A) didn't check on their dinner soon enough,
B) didn't indulge them enough witty chat
C) didn't bring them extra crostinis
D) took away his plate before his wife was finished dining.
E)Everything I did wasn't good enough for them.

I didn't know what to say. I only apologized at least 5 times and even apologized "in case" I had ruined their evening. I didn't even try to make up excuses, I just apologized for my mistakes. It effected my entire night! I was really insecure at the rest of my tables, not sure what to say to them. This has happened, perhaps two other times in my two years at the cafe where I work. And I remember them vividly. Once was the first or second week and therefore was still getting used to everything. The second event was my first evening shift, which again was a learning process. I am sure I have had other bad days, but I can't deal with this right now. I really want a hug.

Friday, May 30, 2008

Don't Laugh.

I totally went to the midnight showing of Sex and the City the movie and cried. (Sigh) I was not expecting that. I wasn't even interested in going... Now I have to buy the complete series on DVD. And rewatch them.

PS. Don't think me a lunatic, I wasn't one of those chicks that clapped at the beginning, end and all the good parts! But I will admit to crying... more than once.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Very exciting...

The next couple of weeks is very exciting.

1/ I get to pick up and chill with my little sister tomorrow.
2/ my sister +1 is coming to visit over Memorial weekend.
3/ the following weekend I am going to KC to see a show. Wait for it.... Wait for it... The Kooks... Rogue Wave... and Death Cab!
4/ I have an interview for a position at Iowa State on June 2nd.
5/ I may be signing a lease this weekend. (This actually scares me quite a bit. Mostly because it is a sign in and around the idea of commitment. For some reason, commitment in relationships doesn't scare me, but anything else in my life, it does. IE: apartment leases, job contracts, purchasing furniture. I am so ridiculous sometimes. I take it back... all the time!

PS. This is what my last interview culminated to:

Lisa,

Thanks for coming in. I think your very talented and holistically thoughtful in your approach to art and design. You seem very content in life which is a grand thing for anyone to own. If things materialize here that point to a fit. We will contact you.

Respectfully,

Blah Blah Blah


Not exxxxxxxxxactly a rejection letter. Nearing the end of the interview he had ended it with what seemed to say, "I don't know if we have the funds to hire another full-timer." Which is very possible, my mentor has blamed the poor economy to his bad luck at finding a design job. He's been unemployed since Novemberish. Oooooooooor Blah Blah Blah was just hinting at such a reference to "let me down easy." Meh.

Currently listening to Bob Marley and the Wailers.

Friday, May 16, 2008

Grrr.

I feel grrr... feisty right now.
And I all wanna do is chill out.

Monday, May 05, 2008

Lists.

1/ this is the firm I have an interview with on May 15th
2/ this is what I am listening to right now (some parts are good, others, not so much)
3/ this
It seems to me that if you place music (and books, probably, and films, and plays, and anything that makes you feel) at the center of your being, then you can't afford to sort out your love life, start to think of it as the finished product. You've got to pick at it, keep it alive and in turmoil, you've got to pick at it and unravel it until it all comes apart and you're compelled to start all over again. Maybe we all live life at too high a pitch, those of us who absorb emotional things all day, and as a consequence we can never feel merely content: happy, we have to be unhappy, or ecstatically, head-over-heels happy, and those states are difficult to achieve within a stable, solid relationship.

is the best thing I read today in High Fidelity by Nick Hornby, one of my favorite movies, and quickly becoming one of my favorite books
4/ I want to go to grad school. But when?
5/ I found an apartment off of Grand on 7th St. that I adore! It has hardwood floors! And a gas stove! And a skylight in the bathroom! I dig... like I dig the earth.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Have you ever seen in someone a hope?

A hope and love sooo great you wonder how he has become the way he is? Does he instill hope in you? These are the questions Rob Bell posed in one of his Nooma videos, which we watched today in place of a sermon. That person for me, is my friend, Lion (Ryan). Though we are not very close he is my "living gospel." I see him with all his cynicism and brokenness, and I wonder in awe at his love. I love you Lion!

Saturday, May 03, 2008

10:16 PM

Not any better. In fact I am more irritable than I was at 8:30. Grrrrr!

Today was kind of lame.

I feel like I didn't take advantage of my day off. I sat at Starbucks for a few hours reading outside. That was nice. But the evening has severely let me down. Granted it is only 8:30. Meh! I feel anxious! And bored. If I had a studio, a space of my own, I would paint or draw.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Hey!

I'm alive. I really am. 23 years young! But not for long. Tomorrow Sheng and I are turning 24! I have a lot to be thankful for, most recently I have...

1/ finished my website
2/ paid off my college debt
3/ and started a savings (I feel so grown up)

4/ I have a family who loves me
5/ and friends who I can trust

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Sleep.

Yesterday was so chill. It felt great! I worked, I worked out, and I worked in some friend time. Totally asleep by 10. I know it sounds lame, but yesterday was much needed.

Li's Index today?

1/ 6.5 hours of work
2/ 52 degrees and overcast in the midwest
3/ currently reading:
a. Asian Americans :: Joann Fuang Jean Lee
b. The Screwtape Letters :: CS Lewis
c. Encyclopedia of an Ordinary Life :: Amy Rosenthal

4/ DVDs I want to watch:
a. Thank You for Smoking*
b. Flight of the Conchords*
c. Little Miss Sunshine
d. Coupling*

5/ still have a lot of today left!^

* denotes ones I have not seen before
^ which will comprise of yoga/treadmill for an hour, laundry, and hanging out with Miss Jessie

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Boo.

I hurt my friend's feelings today. She used the words "You should've known better." I feel awful. For once, there is no music to console me. Nothing. My heart weighs heavy.

Monday, April 07, 2008

So excited!

I want this CD right now! <3 the first three songs. Lov'em.

Sunday, April 06, 2008

What cute guys can get me to do...

I went to Bon Iver in Iowa City last night. The three bands that opened for him made me want to dig out my ear drums. They were awful. In between performances most of the crowd would sit, waiting. I secretly hoped they would stay sitting for his performance. His music is so chill, it deserves a more intimate experience. When he came out, everyone started getting up and he told them how cool we were for sitting, so most of the crowd sat on the floor for the whole show. And I loved him for that. Albeit, I was stage right where a giant speaker blocked my view of him. It didn't really matter though. With him, it's not about the show, it's all about the music. And I love that.

Now back to my post title... What cute guys can get me to do. I was looking at the Bon Iver shirts, kind of wishy washy about whether I wanted one. The band manager let me know that it wasn't even an option, b/c they didn't have my size... which he assumed was small. I was a little disappointed but that made the decision easier for me. So I looked at the Bon Iver CDs and LPs, not very interested since I had all ready purchased the CD off iTunes. He asked me about buying one of those, and I explained I already owned the album to which he responded "Then you already know the iTunes exclusive song 'Wisconsin,'" and I said "Yes." He asked if I frequently purchased music from iTunes and I said sometimes for convenience and instant gratification. I said I missed the tactility and art of actually having the physical version, to which he nudged the vinyl towards me. I smiled and commented on the sweet band poster and hand—drawn sign he had drawn to display prices. In short, he gave me the poster for free on the consensus that Bon Iver be my first vinyl. He was cute... so I did it. But this $20 LP is more like $150, because now have to find a turntable to play it on! I've always wanted one, so I'm still happy. My birthday is coming up, so maybe I'll treat myself... with my tax return.

I also bought Spoon's Ga Ga Ga Ga Ga.

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Top 5

for today:

1/ Kenichi Hoshine
2/ Stefanie Posavec
3/ Bon Iver tonight
4/ cuddling and holding hands
5/ and Redken "All Soft" shampoo and conditioner, (random, I know)

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

I feel gross today.

Gross and lame. Really. I don't dig this. Other news in Li's life:

1/ I am working on a new menu design for the cafe where I work. It's fun. I forget how excited I sometimes get designing. I wish I could work part time designing and part time in a restaurant. I want the best of both worlds. I've been thinking about getting in touch with Smash in Des Moines to see if I can freelance with them. We'll see. My personal website will be up shortly.

2/ I am reading Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas by Hunter S. Thompson. I like reading.

3/ I am pretty sure one of my managers at work likes me. And I don't reciprocate the feelings. More than anything, I wish he would pay respect to the unwritten rule highly suggesting managers not to get involved with servers. He knows that from personal experience! I am partly to blame. I am friendly. And coy. And I give him music. All things suggesting interest. Now I fear ending such things will appear bad. I've done this before. I just don't know how to let a guy know I'm not interested. Instead I get awkward around them, which comes off as "b*tchy." Conversely, I don't know how to let a guy know I am interested, and perhaps it's not obvious b/c I tend to be flirty with all people. My brother tells me it's quite easy... "just tell them." But that just doesn't seem like something I would do. I tend to make things more difficult for myself. It's true.

4/ I am going to Iowa City this weekend to stay with my little sister and see Bon Iver. It will be fun! I am looking forward to two consecutive days off. That never happens!

5/ Did I mention I feel gross?

Monday, March 31, 2008

I could marry him right now...

wanna know what it takes to marry a girl like me?

Tell me I look 18... when we know I am turning 24 in a month. Then tip me 20%. Yeah. today was cool. :) I think this looking younger thing could bid well for me in the future. Don't you think? Yeah.

How was your day?

Friday, March 28, 2008

Mix It Up!

So I am working on a mixed CD. I've been toying with it for about a week now, and up until yesterday, I hated it. I couldn't find the right songs, the right order, it didn't flow, in short i wanted to punch it in the face... if it had one, I assure you, I so would! Yesterday, in frustration I traded 80 percent of the songs, all but the first two, which for some reason I loved in that sequence. Probably the song titles had a lot to do with it. However, I am listening to the mix as I "speak." And the verdict is... I'm diggin it...

If only you could know how I'm feeling,
sitting here drinking my peppermint tea...
in my "COFFEE" mug, gazing out the window,
listening to your mix.
...
If only I could describe what I am feeling.

PS. You will have it shortly.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Grove Cafe.

My friend Marty came home from Santa Barbara for the weekend. I dig. He bought me breakfast at the Grove Cafe, what a gentleman. For those who don't know about the Grove. It's a great mom and pop style diner, catering to those lovers of "small-best-kept-secrets." Where farmers come in at 6 AM and talk about this season's crop and townies discuss the demise of main street due to the presence of not one but two Wal-Mart's. I love it there. At times I wish it was open later, or earlier when I'm chillin with my friends at three in the morning, but then I think it would lose it's quaintness and charm.

Speaking of which:



Friday, March 21, 2008

Weird day.

The day started out okay. I just chilled at home, worked on my website, did some yoga, and chilled with my sister. Then I went to work, which is where the weird began. I don't even know where to begin. It didn't help that my most serious ex, Jonathan came in with his fiance. I am perfectly fine with the two of them. In fact, I'd love to be their friend, but they won't have it and always put me off. It bothers me. They ended up canceling their reservation, I think, based on the fact that I was working. I miss my friendship with him, but I am tired of trying so hard. We dated for five years and he means a lot to me. I'm hurt that I'm not worth more to him. But who am I to judge? I won't shop at Best Buy because my most recent ex works there. Maybe God is punishing me.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

You know who you are...

hundreds of miles away...
you are making me smile...
as you read this. :)

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Nonstop

Thao since Thursday.

iTunes plays since her show at the M-shop.

Beat (Health, Life and Fire) :: 78 times.
Swimming Pools :: 74 times.
Yes, So On And So On :: 68 times.
Fear And Convenience :: 67 times
Geography :: 65 times.

///////////////////
\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\

Seriously.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Soooo...

I'm alive.
...
No really.
I just don't have a lot going on in my life. Though I did go to a show tonight. It rocked. This super-cute Asian chick played the banjo! I WANT TO BE HER! Someone please teach me to play the banjo. Please please.

Oh and PS. I'm drinking hot peppermint tea out of my "Coffee"-labeled mug right now. But sleep is soooooo calling my name, as I woke up at five this morning, officially making this day one of the longest: 19 hours.

xoxo, I will post some pictures of the singer Thao Nguyen in my next post. (Which, I promise will be shorter than 11 days, or whatever was the last time I posted.)

Monday, March 03, 2008

I am...

very much looking forward to this album coming out March 18th.

She & Him

PS. I bought Little Miss Sunshine and Paris, Je T'aime this weekend. Additionally, I've been having my own Arrested Development marathon. I'm starting season two. Wish you were here!

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

My Math Skillz.

Yoga + the Gotan Project = Happiness

PS. Jane Birkin is awesome to the 10th degree.

Now I'm off to the grocery store.
I am craving some Simply Orange.

xoxo

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

My heart hurts.

...
I am crushing on someone.
And it is a ridiculous crush.
...
The crush... and all the flirting is in and of itself harmless and fun. But it makes me think of attachment. The last guy I got attached to broke my heart. And it all began with flirtatious banter. He still breaks my heart when I sit down and actually think about the demise of us. I don't want to get attached to anyone right now. I'm in such a transient part of my life, willing and desiring to flee on a moment's notice but really too frightened to make such daring moves. So am I really willing? Am I really ready?

Listening to Bon Iver.
Feeling sad.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Not Lisa Ly

but, Lykke Li :: Little Bit

Love it!
Thanks Jonni.
Love you.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

List: I dig...

1/ the talking heads.
2/ the talking heads + the arcade fire
3/ holly stalder {Jenny, you will like this}
4/ ...
5/ uhhh fill in the blanks

sidenote:
i have a need to fulfill 5 items in all my lists. this stems from one of my all time favorite movies: high fidelity with john cusack. watch it. such goodness.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

I am lovin this guy...

Bon Iver :: Skinny Love
Myspace // Youtube

and if I lived in any of the following locations... at these dates, I would make my friends in each respective city go with me...

02/22/08 New York, NY - Bowery Ballroom
02/23/08 Brooklyn, NY - Glasslands
03/10/08 Nashville, TN - Exit/In
03/19/08 San Diego, CA - Che Cafe
03/21/08 Santa Barbara, CA - Muddy Waters
03/23/08 San Francisco, CA - The Independent
03/24/08 Portland, OR - Holocene
03/26/08 Seattle, WA - Nectar

then following the show, we could go eat at a sweet lil 24-hour diner, drink coffee or tea, and stay up all night having one of those amazing conversations listening to Skinny Love.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

<3


Happy Valentine's Day.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

I want...

to cuddle.

Maybe if I was as cute as Kumisolo...

PS. The guy that hit on me a few posts ago came into The Cafe yesterday. He made me anxious and my heart started pounding. It was weird. It is the way I feel when I have anxiety about my ex... but to a much lesser degree. I still get really anxious when it comes to him... my ex that is, even hearing his name. That sucks.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

The Morning After.

This is funny.
Oh McSweeney's.
You so funny.

Listening to The Format :: The First Single
"You know me,
Oh you think you do you, you just don't seem to see
I've been waiting all this time to be
Something I can't define so let's
Cause a scene
Clap our hands and stomp our feet or something
Yeah something
I've just got to get myself over me
And I hate what I've become..."

I had a dream.
Lin was having "ex" relationship difficulties with Jim Helpert from The Office. (What a sexy man! Glad he's in my dreams at all.) And I was having drinking problems and smoking pot! Such a weird dream. I think it has something to do with Charlie (manager) giving me that free glass of wine at work last night. I almost feel like that could have contributed to my modesty slip-up. As those of you who know me, know I rarely drink and if I do, can drink very little as my tolerance is sooo low.

Guilty Consciences

This very incident sends shudders down my back and in my heart. If only to relieve a slight portion of the guilt I feel, I reveal my thoughts.

Tonight at work, my manager and I were casually talking about Eyeworks, a local optometry practice we both go to. In response to his comment about needing glasses, I mentioned recently going there last week and expecting my new contacts to arrive this week. He mentioned their student discount being a great deal to which I agreed but with slight remorse as I no longer am a student. The deal is almost 50% off! Seriously. Anyway, he noticed my remorse and commented on it. I said I didn't receive the discount for the aforementioned reason. He said why wouldn't you lie? To which I responded with "That would be lying. I'm too moral for that." I'm too moral for that? Ugh, I make myself sick. He responded with something to the degree of "... get off your high horse." I don't exactly recall his wording, but you get the picture.

I am utterly embarrassed! I am sure he was kidding in his remark, as we have a good working relationship, light-hearted and fun. However, his retort speaks volumes to me and calls on something greater to be addressed: my modesty.

Modesty "is most often rendered as humility, shyness, or simplicity," according to this link here. Someone who is modest is
content to interact with others fully cognizant of who they are, functioning within the boundaries of their own capabilities, or limitations with confidence. One who lives and behaves in simplicity quietly performs daily tasks and routines without the trumpet blown before. There is no need to call attention. Modesty acts gently, but with no less perfection or care as one who may constantly announce their deeds.
To claim morality is beyond immodest, clearly making me immodest. Additionally, I find the more one claims to be something, the more likely he or she is actually not. For example, my brother has remarked on my "coffee addiction." I claim to "not be addicted," often retorting with "I don't need my black coffee everyday, I just like it. He cites this as the first sign of addiction: denial. So by claiming morality, I feel I am in fact proving my immorality.

In short, I am a bit shaken by my remark and am at a loss. I will need a couple more days to feel relieved of this mess. For right now, I am meditating on this:

Philippians 2:3
Don't be selfish; don't live to make a good impression on others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourself.

1 Corinthians 4:7
What makes you better than anyone else?

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Happy Chinese New Year!

This is my year.
Year of the Rat.
Let's make it a good one.

Monday, February 04, 2008

Cool things...

1/ Less than $1000 dollars to payoff my loan.
2/ I figured out how to snooze on my cell alarm clock.
3/ After deliberating whether to keep my cell number or go with a new one, I decide to keep it. Thus my ex texts me that night.

PS. #3 is my attempt at sarcasm.

Listening to Eisley.

Thursday, January 31, 2008

I'm falling apart!

Well, not exactly.
But continuing with the physical hazards I've bestowed unto myself this week (read posts below), today I've hurt mine eye. The right one. I arose at 5:20 AM to be at work by 6. Lately, I've been wearing my contacts everyday, because my glasses were broken and had yet to be fixed. Today the right contact felt like something was caught in it, an eyelash or sand that felt like a mother of a rock... or perhaps it had just torn. I took it out, cleaned it twice and inspected for tears. None to be found, so I put it back in. It continued to hurt, but I tiredly assumed my natural tears would wash whatever eyelash happened to get caught underneath the lid. If you wear lenses you know eyelashes feel like a porcupine in your eye, continually prodding you with some sort of porcupine jig until your salty tears wash it away or you somehow rub it out. Well, I waited and waited... and waited some more. The tears never washed it away, and the rubbing made it worse. By the time lunch-time rolled around, I was desperate for saline relief, but there was none to be found. No one, and I mean no one, in this 15-manned restaurant had saline or even eye drops. Eventually as the day went on and afternoon staff came in, someone had solution. But to no avail was my stress relieved. By the end of the day, I was dying. Literally, bright lights were keeping me at bay. Be glad, those of you not on the roads in Ames, Iowa, today. I was sure to be one of the most dangerous... (not only am I, a woman and Asian, but today, please add on pirate eye) on the road. Needless to say, God, you can ease up on me... just a little, I'm fully aware of my mortality. ;)

Cool things in my life I'd like to share:

1/ Dan Liebert :: Family HAHAHAHA!
2/ Architecture in Helsinki :: Heart it Races Someone with some skill, please sew me an outfit like so. And please take care not to cut open your finger.
3/ my new phone :: I have yet to decide whether to keep my old number with my new phone or change my cell number. Right now I have two numbers to my name.
Pros to keeping old #:
a/ everyone still has my number
b/ I don't have to memorize anything new
Cons to keeping old #:
a/ ex can still get a hold of me and has although I've told him I am not ready to talk to him

I'm pretty indifferent right now, because it's been three weeks or something like that since his last phone call or text. But if he were to call me, right now, me thinks I'd like the new number... immediately.

PS. Lin, Jose Gonzales is performing at the Aladdin Theater, Friday, March 28th. Doors open at 8 PM, tickets are $19 in advance. If I were you, I would go. And I'd bring along my friend who is not named after the city or the omelette but just named.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

I'm a hazard to myself.

I cut my finger cutting up a dress I was altering. It was deep, bleeding for over an hour. I cut it at 8 and decided to wait for my brother to come home. With my right hand applying pressure and holding my left hand above my head, I listened to these seven songs:

1/ Badly Drawn Boy :: Silent Sigh
2/ Vampire Weekend :: Oxford Comma
3/ Matt Costa :: Mr. Pitiful
4/ Rogue Wave :: Lake Michigan
5/ Vampire Weekend :: The Kids Don't Stand a Chance
6/ Emily Loizeau :: Je Suis Jalouse
7/ Band of Horses :: The General Specific

...
on repeat
...
for over an hour.

At 9, I released my finger long enough to call Sheng and find out that yes, I was still bleeding. He said he'd be home shortly.

My day?
Not bad.
Good music.
Lesson learned: my hobbies are dangerous.

Monday, January 28, 2008

Not a great day.

I locked my keys in my car...
with the lights on...
at the gas station.

Luckily, the gas attendant, knowing the car would be there for at least two hours, was very kind and said I could leave my car in the stall while I waited for Sheng (rather than pay 50 or 60 to get a locksmith). Two hours later, when I was finally in, I gave the attendant one of the special Beligian chocolates that I had bought for my twin earlier that day. I hope he knows how grateful I am.

I also dropped my bedside lamp on my toe.
It's black and blue.

The good things about today?

1/ Matt Costa :: Mr. Pitiful (What a cute boy!)
2/ yoga for 45 minutes
3/ training Jon at work today
4/ Vampire Weekend, self-titled release tomorrow
5/ Feist :: I Feel It All
This video is not as brilliant as the now very famous 1234, but it is Feist nonetheless.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

I Dig...

1/ Band of Horses :: The General Specific
2/ Band of Horses :: No One's Gonna Love You
3/ Arthur H plus Feist :: La Chanson De Satie
Arthur's voice has traces of Louis Armstrong. Very cool. And who doesn't love Feist? Or French easy listening for that matter.
4/ Learning to Love You More
I like the idea of this.
I'm not so sure about the execution.
5/ ... (fill in the blank)

I worked a double-shift today. Eleven hours in the blocks of 6 then 5 hours, on my feet. So I'm pretty beat. My heels hurt.

PS. $600 bar guy did not come in the following Sunday.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Pooping Trucks

For the safety of myself,
continuing this blog,
and of course, your continued reading pleasure,
I live where trucks poop gravel.

It's snowing, 11 Degrees and falling.

Top 5 for this here, Wednesday the 23rd of January 2008.

1. Emily Loizeau
2. Vampire Weekend
3. Sewing
4. antique stores
5. shopping thrift


I found this dress in the Ames Antique Mall. It had sleeves on it, which I took off and hemmed.

This dress I bought in my hometown, Atlantic at the thrift store. It was too big when I bought it, so I took it in. But I need to find a white zipper to sew on the side, to make it easier for me to get into. There's also a tear in the back, which you can't see, but it's rather visible... I haven't quite thought of the right solution for that one.

What do you think?

Monday, January 21, 2008

I am guessing

"Je suis jalouse" means I am jealous.

Link

Way to be deductive.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Fortune Cookie:

"Someone is interested in you. Keep your eyes open."

That was on Wednesday night, with someone, who may actually be interested in me.

Saturday day:

Me: "69 Dollars is your change, sir."
Customer: "69 is my favorite number."

I stand stunned for a minute, smile... and walk away.
What does someone even say to that?

He tipped me $10 on a $31 tab. I'm not sure if he felt guilty for saying that to his server, or if he was trying to hit on me. What do you think?

Sunday day:

Customer: "My friend thinks you're really cute. So you should give him a call." Note on paper napkin reads: "Call me soon! We need to get together!" with his name and phone number.

My friend and bartender later tells me the two of them spent over $600 dollars at a bar last night. Not only does that scream "NO!," but I later find out it was a strip club! (My face is completely contorted in disgust and awkwardness.)

Life is ironic sometimes. I enjoy being "woo"ed as much as any girl, but these situations just strike me as unchivalrous and not the slightest bit romantic. I feel awkward, now. What will I do when I see him in the cafe again? You know, when I haven't called and it is all-too-obvious that I was not interested.

Listening to Emily Loizeau.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Have a Lovely Day!

La Blogotheque Fantastique!

Love,
Lisa & Jason Mraz

2:45 AM

When I began this post, it was 2:45 in the morning.
And I listened to Elliot Smith's 2:45 A.M.

I can't sleep.

Could it be the 20 oz. black coffee I drank at noon today? No, how could it? Wikipedia says "In healthy adults, caffeine's half-life is approximately 3–4 hours." Which means, assuming I am a healthy adult, I should've digested the goods within 8 hours... at about 8 or 9 'o'clock. Yet here I am wide-eyed at nearly 3 A.M.

I'd pray for sleep, but I'd rather direct my thoughts towards others. Like YOU! I'm thinking of you. And wouldn't you like to know what I'm thinking? (I'm totally making a winky face right now.) Now that it's 3:10 A.M.,.... I'm more brain-dead than ever and can't even finish the last sentence. Goodnight.... I mean goodmorning.... I mean....

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Double Blogger. Double Amazing.



Two posts in one day? I forgive myself. The chat counts as yesterday's. Listen, watch and love Beirut's Nantes.

PS. This video is from La Blogotheque. They are amazing amazing.

Tonight.







Sunday, January 13, 2008

The Good and the Bad.

The alternator broke in the Cutlass. Bad.
Nightmares about ex boyfriend. Bad.
Sleeping off due to nightmares. Also bad.

The Good?
Work. Work is good.
Reading. Reading's good.
Panda Bear. Oh my gosh, sooo good.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Escape!

My day, two days ago, began great. Work, followed by friends, talking in real conversations: laughter, new music, Chinese for dinner and finally relaxing to the sounds of Panda Bear. Upon the evening we decided to close the night with fresh brews from Olde Main. Oh Dinky Wheat, how delicious you were that night. My friend and I went to relieve the pints we'd steadfastly drank over generous talk of our first shows and first loves. I am surprised when my friend, correction, my male friend, enters the women's bathroom to tell me he is here. He is my ex. My ex who I've not talked to in a couple of months, who drug me along for a year and a half. He who half-charmingly somehow convinced me to lose my better judgement and pine for something that wasn't there. He who finally dumped me for a girl whose slightest attention meant he hadn't lost the touch, easily convinced by the charisma and excitement that new love interests always bring.

We only dated for six months, but after pining for a year my investment in him grew greatly in my head. He failed in every aspect when it came to reality. Lewis tells us to "never, never pin your whole faith on any human being: not if he is the best and wisest in the whole world. There are lots of nice things you can do with sand: but do not try building a house on it."

Needless to say, I escaped, as I so eloquently worded in this entry's title. I, not-so-graciously, hid in the restroom while my friends took care of the tab and grabbed my belongings. I went home with no tears that night but rather fear. Fear for the off-chance I will eventually run into him, be it at the grocery store or Target. The fear that has kept me from returning all of his calls and texts. The fear that makes me wanna get the crap outta here.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Currently...

1/ reading David Sedaris
2/ listening to Bros by Panda Bear
3/ loving the movie Juno
4/ just finishing Lewis' Mere Christianity
5/ drinking peppermint tea