Friday, June 27, 2008


I frequently drive myself crazy with my own stupid thoughts. These thoughts are exacerbated when people suggest I read links such as this. Which albeit, helpful, also discouraging. How are men and women, sooooo different?

I also tried to talk things out with a girlfriend, who if no one knows where I am, they would know to call her. Well that didn't help like I thought it would.

What I really need to be, is alone somewhere for the remaining week. Tonight, the goal is to not talk to anyone. Which will be hard since I'm working tonight. And I have plans to hang out with Andy. But we're going to try. I'm really going to try this no talking thing. What do you think?

Saturday, June 21, 2008

So... Funny things...

I bartended at work today. Me. Can you imagine this little asian girl running behind a big bar making your drinks? LOL. It was fun... and I would do it again.

Today I made:

9 bloody mary's
2 mimosas
2 margaritas
and poured 2 or 3 wine glasses

There was a few drinks I didn't make because I got caught up serving my 10 tables

Those include:
a key lime martini
4 mojitos
and maybe something else?

Not sure I could bartend all that much. But I feel honored that my boss trusted me to do it in the first place.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Dear Mother of all things that are evil,

This new ride you call Tossing and Turning into the wee hours is AMAZING! I'm not much for rides, but this is more fun than I can handle. I mean seriously. You should really market this better. I think you're missing a key audience: those who actually fall asleep before 2 AM. Mother of Evil, you mustn't advertise on late night TV infomercials anymore, as you see those people are already convinced clientele. Let's put this on daytime TV. Now that's an audience that can use some convincing.

PS. These summer allergies are a wonderful addition to the fantastical adventure that is the time I usually reside to bedtime slumber. How much do I pay for this added feature? The stuffy nose? I mean really... just exquisite!

Monday, June 16, 2008


I took the job. Most of you who read this, already know this. Feeling all right about it. I still get to keep my job at The Café, which makes me VERY happy. And now I will be able to afford my two-bedroom apartment, which will be great! Bedroom 2 will be my guest bedroom and painting studio. So if anyone feels like visiting the middle of Iowa, you have a room in my home.

My friend Andy returned from traveling the Far East. He's well and I am happy to have him back in my life. More importantly, I'm excited for us to go kayaking!

Also, friends and family, my phone, will be replaced Thursday morning. And you will get to hear my beautiful voice once again! Sorry for the past couple of weeks, it's been hard for everyone, especially me.

Listening to Death Cab's lastest album.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008


I don't even care!
Whateva whateva!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Day 3

Lin, here are some shows for you at the Aladdin Theater that I would go to if I were where you are. Much love.

w/ Glass Candy
Tickets $13.00 adv /$14.00 dos
Doors 7:00pm / Showtime 8:00pm

2/ (Lacey loves Joshua Radin... I am not too familiar, but you could easily make Lacey jealous)
w/ Erin McCarley & Hanna Testle
Tickets $15.00 adv / $18.00 dos
Doors 7:00pm / Showtime 8:00pm

3/ I LOVE! Bon Iver. LOVE. (PS. I bought his EP, and I don't even own a turntable.)
w/ A.A. Bondy
Tickets $14.00 adv / dos
Doors 8:00pm / Showtime 9:00pm

4/ I saw Stars in NYC when I lived there. The venue was awful, but I love these guys too. See them!
Friday, August 22, 2008
Tickets $16.00 adv / dos
Wonder Ballroom * 128 NE Russell * PORTLAND * 503-284-8686
All Ages

Monday, June 09, 2008

Day 1

1:51 AM
I am cleaning cleaning cleaning.
And enjoying it.
Currently listening to Beat :: Thao

Saturday, June 07, 2008




B/c of my grrr day, I bought the new Fleet Foxes album (dig White Winter Hymnal).... and I went to the Antique Ames mall and bought a jade-hued vintage leather purse on sale for $10. I adore it! Currently, NOT adoring the Iowa humidity.... and totally jealous of Sheng's trip to San Francisco. He leaves tomorrow and will be gone for a week. What a jerk, right? :P

Ps. Here's a picture of one of my dearest friends, Jaci. Together, we ventured to Kansas City, Missouri and saw the Kooks, Rogue Wave and the one and only Death Cab for Cutie.

Monday, June 02, 2008

I'm getting cold feet.

I don't want to interview for this job. I think I need to sleep. My nerves are getting to me. I'm so emotional right now!

It's times like these, I feel the world is crashing down on me, pressuring me to "get a real job." I have never had such a strong distaste for the idea of doing something as I do now. I just keep imagining sitting alone in front of the computer designing meaningless ephemera that will get printed on poor black and white laser printers and wasted upon eyes who don't care. I had this job 4 years ago as a sophomore in design; I recall being bored out of mind, asked to do boring things like posters for "free hot dogs on campus" and having to draw a cartoon walking hot dog b/c a student, "my client," thought it was a great idea.

This is not what I want. So what am I doing?

Sunday, June 01, 2008


I had a bad day. I am trying to relax from it so I can focus on more pertinent things (ie: my interview tomorrow) but I can't shake this awful day. I had some customers tell me all the things I did wrong while serving them. I

A) didn't check on their dinner soon enough,
B) didn't indulge them enough witty chat
C) didn't bring them extra crostinis
D) took away his plate before his wife was finished dining.
E)Everything I did wasn't good enough for them.

I didn't know what to say. I only apologized at least 5 times and even apologized "in case" I had ruined their evening. I didn't even try to make up excuses, I just apologized for my mistakes. It effected my entire night! I was really insecure at the rest of my tables, not sure what to say to them. This has happened, perhaps two other times in my two years at the cafe where I work. And I remember them vividly. Once was the first or second week and therefore was still getting used to everything. The second event was my first evening shift, which again was a learning process. I am sure I have had other bad days, but I can't deal with this right now. I really want a hug.