Friday, May 30, 2008

Don't Laugh.

I totally went to the midnight showing of Sex and the City the movie and cried. (Sigh) I was not expecting that. I wasn't even interested in going... Now I have to buy the complete series on DVD. And rewatch them.

PS. Don't think me a lunatic, I wasn't one of those chicks that clapped at the beginning, end and all the good parts! But I will admit to crying... more than once.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Very exciting...

The next couple of weeks is very exciting.

1/ I get to pick up and chill with my little sister tomorrow.
2/ my sister +1 is coming to visit over Memorial weekend.
3/ the following weekend I am going to KC to see a show. Wait for it.... Wait for it... The Kooks... Rogue Wave... and Death Cab!
4/ I have an interview for a position at Iowa State on June 2nd.
5/ I may be signing a lease this weekend. (This actually scares me quite a bit. Mostly because it is a sign in and around the idea of commitment. For some reason, commitment in relationships doesn't scare me, but anything else in my life, it does. IE: apartment leases, job contracts, purchasing furniture. I am so ridiculous sometimes. I take it back... all the time!

PS. This is what my last interview culminated to:

Lisa,

Thanks for coming in. I think your very talented and holistically thoughtful in your approach to art and design. You seem very content in life which is a grand thing for anyone to own. If things materialize here that point to a fit. We will contact you.

Respectfully,

Blah Blah Blah


Not exxxxxxxxxactly a rejection letter. Nearing the end of the interview he had ended it with what seemed to say, "I don't know if we have the funds to hire another full-timer." Which is very possible, my mentor has blamed the poor economy to his bad luck at finding a design job. He's been unemployed since Novemberish. Oooooooooor Blah Blah Blah was just hinting at such a reference to "let me down easy." Meh.

Currently listening to Bob Marley and the Wailers.

Friday, May 16, 2008

Grrr.

I feel grrr... feisty right now.
And I all wanna do is chill out.

Monday, May 05, 2008

Lists.

1/ this is the firm I have an interview with on May 15th
2/ this is what I am listening to right now (some parts are good, others, not so much)
3/ this
It seems to me that if you place music (and books, probably, and films, and plays, and anything that makes you feel) at the center of your being, then you can't afford to sort out your love life, start to think of it as the finished product. You've got to pick at it, keep it alive and in turmoil, you've got to pick at it and unravel it until it all comes apart and you're compelled to start all over again. Maybe we all live life at too high a pitch, those of us who absorb emotional things all day, and as a consequence we can never feel merely content: happy, we have to be unhappy, or ecstatically, head-over-heels happy, and those states are difficult to achieve within a stable, solid relationship.

is the best thing I read today in High Fidelity by Nick Hornby, one of my favorite movies, and quickly becoming one of my favorite books
4/ I want to go to grad school. But when?
5/ I found an apartment off of Grand on 7th St. that I adore! It has hardwood floors! And a gas stove! And a skylight in the bathroom! I dig... like I dig the earth.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Have you ever seen in someone a hope?

A hope and love sooo great you wonder how he has become the way he is? Does he instill hope in you? These are the questions Rob Bell posed in one of his Nooma videos, which we watched today in place of a sermon. That person for me, is my friend, Lion (Ryan). Though we are not very close he is my "living gospel." I see him with all his cynicism and brokenness, and I wonder in awe at his love. I love you Lion!

Saturday, May 03, 2008

10:16 PM

Not any better. In fact I am more irritable than I was at 8:30. Grrrrr!

Today was kind of lame.

I feel like I didn't take advantage of my day off. I sat at Starbucks for a few hours reading outside. That was nice. But the evening has severely let me down. Granted it is only 8:30. Meh! I feel anxious! And bored. If I had a studio, a space of my own, I would paint or draw.